So today was not that I bad. I was so focused on God and seeking Jesus that I sometimes forget about eating, but when I ate during the late night, I remember reading this passage and it was in my head while I chewed on my rice, "For forty days, being tempted by the devil. And he ate nothing during those days. And when they were ended, he was hungry." Luke 4:2
What has God shown me during these past days of fasting?
First off, He has opened my eyes to be more patient and love what I am blessed with. I have been wanting so many earthly things that it distracts my walk with Christ. For example, the iPhone 5, haha, being employed, being able to fit in with other college students, and live like a eighteen year old like others, but the Lord showed me that I am blessed with so many things already that I should be thankful. Secondly, trusting Him. I have to admit I have a hard time trusting Him. I'm always thinking about tomorrow when I do not know what tomorrow will bring, but to focus on the present, and to Glorify Him everyday. Lastly, the Lord showed me to humble myself. I guess you could say I used to have a hard time boasting about myself, but recently this past summer I remember that I shouldn't be so boastful, and this past fasting the Lord just humbled my heart and I was very convicted on how I talk about my faith, but sometimes I wear a double mask.
I'm honestly so thankful to have a relationship with God. I sometimes do wonder how my life would be like if I was so lost. And I remember that I need to bring the lost to Christ, because we were all a lost sheep once.